Vote for me, and I'll set you free!!! No, for real this time...

I quit, fuck you, thats all...

There's nothing in the world like the feel of defeat. I know it all too well. Sometimes you just have to give up, and call it quits. There's no feeling in the world like the feel of victory, but the feel of defeat can always trump that one...haha. Sometimes you lose, not because you didn't give it your best, but because you were meant to lose...
  I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm definitely meant to lose.. Its mainly because I love someone who hates me, and not because I'm an asshole, but for all the things I stand for. I can't help it that I love the idea of honor,and dignity, and  respectability. I also cannot force those ideas upon someone else, thats all..

  Maybe I'm a knight errant, but I feel like a knight appointed, and that makes all the difference. Find me failing if you will,, but fuck you too...I still have my honor, if not my dignity.these days.

I hope that all of you reading this realize that I'm only slightly broken by the system, Never subjugated, never enslaved, at least by the system, anway. I also hope that one person reading this realises that I've tried all my life to be a knight, not a knave.

  Honor, dignity, and prosperity...those have always been my ideals, I just wish that some other people could share those ideals....

Fuck you, you're an idiot!

I'm goddamned sick and tired of certain stupid bitches thinking that having a vagina gives them power...If your  cunt is your only source of power, then lay down and die, please.  You would be doing the taxpaying world a favor if you did, so stop taking the cock, and die already! I don't care who gets offended by this, and I could give a rats ass if somebody decides to "protect" her children by witholding them from such a madman as me... You know who you are, and if this doesn't help you figure it out, then you're even more stupid than I even thought. Your days as a dumbass are numbered, and I'm pretty sure that your time has run out, so stop pointing the finger, get off your ass and do something positive for yourself!  Stop expecting the entire USA to subsidize your fat, stupid ass, and get a fucking JOB!!!!! I know how you hate those of us who work hard, pay our taxes, and sacrifice our time to make a buck, but believe it or fucking not, nobody owes you any-goddamn-thing.

I need all my readers to realize that 5 years ago, I was in a bad place personally, and made a series of decisions, which right now, don't really amount to a fart in a windstorm, all truth be told! I've given time, more money than I care to think about, and sadly, all the love I had to give, all in exchange for a giant steaming pile of dogshit. The recipient of all these things has decided that her jobless, pot-smoking ass is more important than anything else in the world, and I'm fucking goddamned sick of it! She'll probabkly never read this, as reading isn't her strong point. Neither are going to her childs school, making or attending doctors appointments,  waking up in the morning to get the kids on the bus, doing dishes, cooking actual meals, or dealing with her OWN landlord, in any way. For some reason though, I'm still the bad guy, so now its up to all of you to decide....

I'm an asshole because I know about mental illness, and try to take care of my own , which is why I'm here...Its cheaper than a psychiatrist, and it actually helps me feel better, whether you read it or not. I don't blame others for my failings, I don't expect decent, hardworking people to handle my affairs because I'm just too fucking lazy. I don't sit on my ass and smoke pot all day, because I have a JOB, and yes, it takes a lot of my time...Most women bitch about their men having shitty jobs, or no job at all, but I personally get screamed at for even having one...I guess when your entire life has been spent on the government's tab, you learn to be careless with your money, excuse the fuck outta me, I suppose! If you feel like the entire world is against you, then fucking do something about it! Don't just blame the person who is actually paying your bills, see a fucking doctor, take his meds, for better or for worse, but fucking do something MORE than point a finger!!!

In essence, I'm sick of being blamed for every fucking thing under the sun, by ONE person. I'm sick of being put on blast publicly, when I've tried so hard to hide the darkest side of my bad decisions. We all have a price to pay for our sins, and I'll gladly pay my OWN, but don't expect me to pay for any more of your stupid fucking irresponsibilities, or your idiotic judgment calls, which we both know to be bad ideas. If you can't stand your own fucking kids, because they're too much like yourself, THEN STOP FUCKING HAVING THEM!!!!!!! It isn't the JOB of every American citizen to support you and your brood, so get off your fat, lazy ass, and do it your goddamned self!!

This missive COULD apply to any welfare case in the USA, and it should, but for fucks sake, you know who you are, so start taking at least some kind of account of yourself, and stop bleeding the rest of us dry, financially and emotionally both!!!! If you dislike my ideas, feel free to fucking die, as nobody will notice or care anyway....


Love...
            David

Wishes...

I have so many wishes, but I already know that none of them will ever come true. I wish I were richer, I wish I were better with relationships, I wish we could overhaul the American government, I wish I had a much bigger dick (back to relationships, I guess haha).

We all wish for something better, we all wish for something bigger, we all wish for rainbows and unicorns and shit, but to no avail for me, anyway. We all have wishes, but it seems that I only see the other peoples wishes coming true...fuck....

I want desperately to believe in something better, but I swear, it seems that the harder I try, the bigger I fail. Seems like whining right now, but just wait till it hits you too! The only headway I've made lately is in my career, which also kinda sucks, because of what I had to give up in exchange.....fuck me again...

I'm glad that things are working out well for all of my friends, don't get me wrong,  I love you all, and wish you the best, I promise...But when is it MY turn?!?  When can I fail in a slightly less grand fashion? When can I have my cake and eat it too?  When is it my turn to actually enjoy my life? Why Jesus, why?!!!!?

In summary; I love my people, and wish all of you the very best of life, but I also want my share of the pie, no more, no less. Please stop expecting people like me to take care of your needs, but neglect our own. Please stop being assholes when you go out to eat. Please read this, and maybe understand me a little better, or even understand yourself a bit more, because knowing yourself means knowing everyone else too...take it to heart, because its true...


I love you all, except those of you whom I want to die....you know who you are...


Dave....

Politics in America...What The Fuck, People?!!!?

If you're one of those stupid assholes who is more concerned about a candidates level of "faith", than their will to lead my nation, then stop reading NOW, assuming you can actually read, at all, anyway. If you think that the earmark of a great leader is his church attendance record, then please just die...now, if possible, please! If you think that we can solve all our national problems by closing immigration, lowering taxes on those already rich enough to buy the world, and enforcing school prayer, then please be ready to die when I take over, because your end is getting near.

The Constitution clearly calls for a separation of Church and State, which we have FAILED to observe as a nation. When we began to assess our candidates "faith level", rather than his CHARACTER, we failed as a nation to find solidarity, which saddens me greatly. The last thing we did as a nation, as far as I can tell, was to turn eastward, and give jolly old England the Finger. This also saddens me, because it makes me realize how Carter got elected. How stupid can WE be again, I ask you?

Stop believing that democrats or republicans are the devil, and start asking yourself if you made a reality-based decision when you decided to vote in the first place. The electoral college of the senate negates your vote if it wants to, period. The American people no longer have ANY control over their own government, and if you believe otherwise, then Fuck You. Prove me wrong, and become my new hero, or just accept what they tell you, and be a good citizen.....whatever, I guess. Most people I know can't stand the thought of dissapproval, and will never think beyond that, are you one of them? I'm NOT...

Your beloved Jesus did NOT belong to a political party, he was persecuted by one, then crucified by it. How could we possibly find national salvation, if we believe that ONLY one party could be right? If you can believe the claims of a single political party, then I'm assuming that you also buy a lot of shit from infomercials. I personally do not, but we won't talk about my Eggies experience haha.

STOP believing the bullshit you're being fed. STOP agreeing with dumbasses just because they belong to the same party as you. STOP thinking that your god is watching you, and DO the right thing! Learn to say "Fuck You!" to Washington, learn to say "I don't believe you...." when some democrat/republican asshole tells you that its God's will for some restrictive new law to be signed into being...Just use your brains, thats all I could possibly ask of all of you....

Here lately, I've honestly tried to focus on making decisions that benefit everyone around me, rather than just myself. I doubt that it shows any real maturity on my part, but rather a desire to get along peacefully with my daily human counterparts. Much could be said for a similar national attitude, I think. If you think that we've matured as a nation, since the signing, I urge you to think again...Where once every citizen thought of their nation before themselves, today we wonder what else the government can do to improve our daily lives.  "A government large enough to provide everything you need, is also large enough to take everything you own", said Thomas Jefferson. I agree in every way.

Please exercise some skepticism in the coming election, our homeland depends on it. Please stop taking someone else's word on who God wants to lead the nation, they're probably lying. Please stop believing what political machines tell you. I know all this will hurt, but just try to relax and let it happen....

   Dave...

What songs say, and why they're wrong!

   The song says that love is all you need, and we all know thats total bullshit. Sometimes, love just isn't enough, and we all know it, or at least we should. The song says that Sex ain't really love, but I beg to differ, as I think that sex is  the ultimate show of love, especially if done well, and with the purpose of REALLY satisfying your partner. The songs say that Money can't buy you love, but I know that to be a lie! See the above statement, and then see a talented hooker, you'll make the connection too, I do believe, and all in exchange for a little money, as I'm well aware of...
   My entire life has been spent listening to music, and trying to find real love, something lasting, something real, and something that doesn't come at the expense of your wallet, or your pride. You think you've found it, but like everything else, it slips away. There's nobody to blame but you, and yet the entire world is usually at fault, and I have no advice to help reconcile that, I'm afraid. If I knew how to fix that, I'd be a wiser man, but alas, I am not. I'm just a guy who can't seem to do the smart thing, and I almost seem to think thats my real destiny, yet I continue to fight it, and lose, for the most part.
   Sometimes we backslide, and do things that we know are wrong. Sometimes we do things we believe to be right, but aren't. Sometimes you just do it, and then wonder eternally if you made the right or wrong choice. Thankfully, eternity in my world is extremely short-lived, so no blood, no foul.  My choices run the gamut from "Great idea Dave!", to "What the fuck were you thinking, dude?", and although my life is never boring, its also never stable, but you go with what you know, I suppose....Better the devil you know, than the devil you don't!

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   Seriously, I want corporate sponsorship! I want soooooo badly to be one of those highly paid assholes who make the money by just talking about what they think. Look at Andy Rooney, he was on 60 minutes for a century or so, and just to tell America what they really thought about things. I know what Americans really think of things, after all, I happen to be one. Maybe a disgruntled one, but one nonetheless...
   What does it really take to be a professional disseminator? I know that a law degree would help, but I also know that my getting one is more than highly unlikely! I'm sure that being telegenic would greatly help my cause, but again, no dice. If only there were a government program to help people get famous...If you can think of any better ideas, just let me know, I'll print them with full credit, I assure you...
   You would think that some young, hip network like Mtv46, or VHwhatever would want an aging, angry metalhead, with a slight drinking problem. Somebody who really knows what child support issues are about, someone who could explain to the younger generation why we hate them so...Again, no dice....I called the networks, but couldn't get through the automated menu...maybe tomorrow. Maybe I'll become a tour guide, and work my way up really fast...maybe I'll shit live poultry too...one never knows these days. I want to be the next Bill O'Reilly, but I fear that my denouncement of the current two-party political system would both fall on deaf ears, and possibly earn me jail time, courtesy of the patriot act, which is still in full force, no matter what you might've heard. That's another rant for another time, believe me!

I know that I need to be more timely, more in touch with current events, more relevant, more informative...I'll try, but I promise nothing! The people I'm chasing didn't get where they were by keeping their opinions to themselves, and I don't plan to either. I'm trying to live the American dream people, help me....remember that you can comment....


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